Life tends to throw so many twists and turns our way. We have several choices, we can run from them, learn from them or simply avoid them in hopes that they will disappear.

Things are not any better here. As each day passes I find myself a step closer to the door. He decided to go through the Mr. Nice Guy stage and show me what a kind person he can be blah blah. Well, I look at it like this, you have not wanted to be kind and nurturing in ten years so don't start now. Of course that was all shot out the door when I refused to have sex with him. Ummm hello... am I speaking a language  you don't understand?? I do not tell you bye when you leave, I do not say good morning or good night, I do not speak to you at all unless and have to and you want WHAT from me?!?! You are kidding right?

I know what a total  . But like I told my oldest dd today. Mom is in an "I don't care" stage. She has seen what I have gone through for years and has lately been saying things like ya know mom, we can go and get an apartment. Now when your 13 year old dd says this, it's time. I am just taking things one step at a time and making sure I can do it right so I don't fall flat on my face.

For so long I have done things he wanted me to. He likes my hair to be blond so I have dyed it some sort of blonde for the past few years. I will admit I too like the blonde but tonight.... I took the plunge to brunette. Out of spite? You bet your sweet ass it is!! Does he hate it? Probably so and that makes me love it even more. I know it sounds childish but hey it made me smile!

I am off to check on everyone! Have an awesome night!!